i realised alot of the songs is bout.. falling-out-of-love
yes but i cannot truly understand the emotions behind the lyrics. *im so heartless
how i wish i can recommend these songs to some-who-might-appreciate- it more.
because i am sure you can understand the songs stronger than i do.
you might need them, you dont know.
how come i dont get it watever is said.
maybe its just me.
i get so stressed when explain something.
then i become scared and scribbles.. then i lose track of whats happening
then i go back to the computer staring at blank screen.
should i try to not take notes as often and look at wat is drawn..
maybe i learn better.
man i should pray for more faith.
i know im stressing myself which causes me to not understand a thing.
its actually pretty easy t understand but cos im stressed.
my brain dont process…
i only literally understand after the rest understands..
i take it so hard cos i could’ve take it easier..
∫(–.)
their live is even BETTER..
tell me..
how many singers can have live better than recording…
i tell you.
them.
the ugly but talented singers.
who needs looks when you can beat it with skills..
i tell you.
thats how i came about.
thats how the old man in my house did it.
*and oh yeah, he can sing, he can play guitar. he’s ugly, but talented.
he probably could’ve debuted in a band ;D
hahaha…
i was nvr a good fan. nvr truly show real support.
now i look back at these ppl. listen to the voices. looking into the expression. the eyes. even more beautiful when they slowly shut themselves from the world, imaging another surreal world in the mind. the wrinkles forming in the faces as the voice trembles that brings the music into life.
INTO LIFE.
now i truly understand what is singing from the HEART…
it is not just singing..
it is the life, the emotions from the music..
the lyrics speaks… the music shapes… the emotion lives…
and when i want to show my true support…
the chance is gone..
some times i dont understand why true talents.. are not given a chance to shine…
dont tell me its cheenah. dont tell me the market is too small. dont tell me we can never ever beat others..
because you never gave them a chance.
you never gave yourself a chance to listen.
how can you trash ppl, without even experiencing it for yourself.
as i sit here.. regretting not bring able to enjoy these harmony of voices again..
my heart wrenches..
knowing that behind these lyrics.. might have bring back memories.. unanswered questions..
i may not be you. but i can somehow guess it..
the power of music.
the gift from God….
sometimes i ask myself. if i am good enough.
nobody can be perfect. but i just hope to be good enough…
enough to be trusted.
enough to understand what is behind all these.
enough to help remove the mask that is almost sealed…
i just hope…
while i can be good enough for others…
i can be enough.. to myself..
because it seems like…
i am talking to myself through the mirror…..
after a good sit-down-and-think session…
i guess its all up to you to do something about yourself.
JJ:“你有没有想过，这件事情过后，他会远离基督徒？”
me:“。。。。。。”
this is something i am very confused with myself…
why do i feel for these ppl… when i dont even know them personally…
probably.. there’s this chemistry of God’s love.. of faith..
where this heart will soften… and God is always brought into this picture..
then again.. how come i feel so much for these ppl again..?
when i have pushed away somebody closer to me….
how ironic….
am i turning for the worse…..?
if there were any bit of remorse…
you wouldn’t be talking like this…
you wouldn’t be thinking like this…
you wouldn’t be behaving like this…
you wouldn’t have that tone… that glare.. that frown.. that stand..
you wouldn’t come back, rewinding history again and again…
you wouldn’t spin words.. building up walls… defending..
you wouldn’t look back, hunting for loopholes… to use against us…
you think you have no wrong…
you think the world owes you…
you think you had it hard…
lest you knew…
as time passes…
history shall repeat itself…
and would your walls of defend shall crumble down upon you…
striking you harder than ever….
nevermind…
God knows what will it come to in the future…..
let’s wait and see…..
